我和死亡擦身而过?


我今天早上翻开报纸,感到非常心寒。头条新闻都是关于四川的大地震。翻开副刊,看到一篇文章,读了之后,心头一酸,好想哭。在这里我找到一张非常符合这篇文章的照片,想跟大家分享:

那是一张纸 不是饼干

● 原甸
呵! 纳尔吉斯是谁?
我们谁都不知道
但它却把灾难与我们的民族
一夜之间捆绑在一起
我只记得那一夜
黑夜安静得令人出奇
而且令人不安和战栗
纳尔吉斯扑来了 在半夜
它把千家万户的瓦片卷走
好像扫落叶一般的扫走
我们睡在地板上的婴儿
(因为我们贫穷 我们没有床)
穿过破屋顶被举上黑夜的天空
黑浪立刻伸出舌头把他们舔走
妈妈们连哭喊都来不及
(我们其实是没有声音的民族)
今夜我们更没有声音
因为风,水和泥土都塞满着我们
每一个人
(包括我们婴儿的妈妈)
呆滞的嘴巴
天亮的时候
我们看到伊洛瓦底江
出现了许多许多的小岛屿——
尸首都挺着鼓胀的肚皮
太阳把这些肚皮照得黑里透亮
水牛也安歇了
伴着它的主人
仰卧在黄泥土般的水波上
牛与人都安歇了
因为纳尔吉斯今天来到
我们已经无力站立了
因为稻米之乡已经断粮
我们守着江边盼着救援的船只
我们看到一只飞鹰都高兴
因为它太像救援的飞机
许多人看着看着突然倒下了
(他们倒下也好
让没有倒下的人少了争抢者)
哎! 听说他们要派东西给我们呢!
在这地狱的边沿
他们要派“民主”的公投票
那是一张纸呀!
不是饼干
那不是饼干呀!
是一张纸
他们要给我们“公投”
他们要给我们“民主”
但我们没有饼干……

13 May 2008,早报副

我从小就在新加坡长大,而且那个年代新加坡在改头换面,已经没有贫穷的痕迹。我不知道什么是战争,什么是缺水,什么是宗族暴乱,我只能想像那种环境是怎么样的。看到世界正面临的危机,我仿佛亲身体会那种无奈,那种害怕,那种无助。而早报副刊的这篇文章一针见血,说明了人民要的是基本的粮食,而不是民主。这些灾民和我都是同一个地球的孩子,可是我无能为力,还平安无事的在这里为他们感到不值,真的好像有点虚伪。

我一直都会记得,今天我和他们处在相反的环境,不是因为我比他们优秀,比他们特别。我只是比较幸运,所以这一切都不能当做理所当然。

今天我差一点被大卡车撞死,也许那生死之差让我更珍惜自己的性命。事情发生在公司山下花圃的路段。卡车司机从对面的小路直闯过来。他本来只能右转,可是为了走捷径,不但闯红灯,还被左边行驶的汽车吹笛。他为了闯灯,又为了闪车,快速的驶入我的车道(我的左边有一辆小罗哩、右边则是卡车应该驶入的单行车道,所以我动弹不得),当时我只能看着他对着我冲来,如果他没有闪避我,顺利的驶回我右边的单行车道,后果不堪设想。以他的速度和体积,我应该是凶多吉少。或许幸运星照着我,所以我安然无恙。谢天谢地,谢谢神灵的保佑。

我这也不算是和死亡擦身而过吧,和中国四川的人民比起来,根本没得比。看到新闻的画面,网上的照片,阵阵悲酸涌上心头。想想那些失去孩子的父母,想想那些失去同学的学生,想想那些想帮可是又自身难保的同胞,想想那些眼睁睁看着爱人被活埋的难民。。。那种痛,是我这个幸福的新加坡孩子最接近的亲身体会。

记得要感激现在所拥有的,因为不管怎样,我们都是幸福的孩子。

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17 responses to “我和死亡擦身而过?

  1. How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he sometimes thinks he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people — first of all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness is wholly dependent, and then for the many, unknown to us, to whose destinies we are bound by the ties of sympathy. A hundred times every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving…

    Quoted from “The World As I See It” by Albert Einstein

  2. joanne jie jie,
    all the photos , ur perception..
    wanna make me cry…is quite sad..!!!
    anyway, take care when u’re driving..
    be careful..!!

  3. Hey Joanne! God bless! I’m so glad you escaped unhurt. I had a narrow escape myself 4 years ago. Was knocked down by a car near the Novena Church. Physically, I wasn’t badly hurt … some light cuts though the impact was enough to send me into a sort of daze I’d never forget. I’d be lying if I said that incident had not changed my outlook on life and death. It made me love life even more, for there is none more precious. The Great Sichuan Earthquake saddens me deeply, especially when I’ve been to that place before, there is great emotional attachment. I’d like to make a donation to the Chinese Red Cross but the link doesn’t seem to work. If anyone knows if any organisation might be collecting donations in aid of the earthquake victims, I’d appreciate the info. Carpe diem, and never hesitate to say ‘I Love You’!

  4. Joanne, I same as u.. When I see today newspaper. I also think that we are lucky to born in Singapore. Now, 四川的大地震 make everybody there so mess & lost.. Specially when u see the one who so close to u had died in the 大地震.. Ur tears will come out.. And Can’t accept it…

  5. Hi, thanks for posting such a meaningful post. I am a medical student, and I used to think that there is so much I can do to save lives. But reality seems to be falling apart. The more I learn, the more limitation I encounter. Sometimes, people just can’t do much, especially in the setting of natural disasters and incurable diseases. But we do have a choice on how to lead our lives. So, live life to the fullest =D

    Really enjoy reading your blogs (both in Mandarin and English), keep up the good work! And I like your dramas too =)

  6. 地球病了,聪明的人类,也抵不过自然现象。

  7. 希望那儿的情况不要太糟糕咯~

  8. it’s so sad seeing how people are affected by the natural disasters.many death occurs and people lost their love ones.

    anyway,do take care.
    =))

  9. hihi Joanne,
    Feel pity for those people,espically the children.We are very lucky that we don’t have something like this here in Singapore.Two big incidents just happened like that.We geog teacher said that we don’t have disasters like that because we are in the,middle and we are surrounded by different countries like malaysia anf more.

  10. hi joanne

    看过你的文章,愈发对你刮目相看!你的思想,心态总是那么积极而又不失深度,平和而又不失激情!对于你的影迷,特别是年纪还小的学生影迷来说,你是一个很好的榜样。你的人生观对于他们思想的成长是一个很好的方向!对于我个人,虽然年纪比你大几岁,但同样欣赏你的睿智和善良,透过你的文字,我也领悟到很多。
    ps:小心驾驶,安全第一!

  11. I am very touched to see the comments made by all of you, to know that there are so many like-minded people, who share an interest and extend their emotions to the plights of those suffering. Thank you for moving me. 🙂

    Love,
    Joanne

  12. Dear Ken,

    我很开心看到你的留言。我很喜欢跟大家分享我的想法,也希望自己能象你所说的,做小学生影迷的榜样。可是我知道很多小朋友都不爱看中文文章,所以我有不少留言和电邮,要求我翻译成英文。这让我不知所措。因为我就是希望能与他们分享我思考的语言,有时是中文,有时是英文。我的内心世界,我真的不想牵强,为了满足需求而刻意翻译,毕竟这博客不是为了个人宣传,它是让我实现写作的自我安慰。这也就是为什么我不会为了写而写。有一段时期,没有什么灵感,因为忙着新剧,要进入状态。现在步入拍摄一个多月了,已经入戏了,所以就有时间自我娱乐,书看的比较多,对周围的人与事也比较敏感,自然就有发表文章的话题。真的很感激体谅和接受我的作风的粉丝和朋友。
    你们每一句留言,就是我继续分享感受的动机。
    Joanne

  13. melissa miss j0anne

    aww…its sad to hear this news and seeing how these ppl suffer..because of th eearthquake in china i also had to cancel my trip there..hope i will be able to go visit there one of these days..but i would be going gold coast instead.=) joanne jiiex..hope to see yahx so0n ok?? anyway of ya events coming up?? MISS AND LOVE YAH!!

  14. 天灾无情,人有情.
    为走的人哀悼,为活的人祈祷.
    同胞们,
    伸出你们的援助之手.
    有钱出钱,有力出力.
    共度难过,重建家园.

  15. DRIVE SAFELY.
    GOD BLESS YOU .

  16. Hi Joanne!
    I love reading your blog and in some entries your words have motivated my life somehow. The sad part is..i do not do blogging and I came across this music video by Joey Yung singing ‘Amazing Grace’ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S02K8Bdl4q4&feature=related and it would be very much appreciated if you could tag up this video in your blog as I would like to do my part and dedicate this song to the people and sufferers in Sichuan earthquake.
    Thank you very much for you time and God bLeSs! =D

  17. hi there~! just found out about your blog recently (didn’t know you have one till i browse through one of my friend’s blog). your entries are amazing…this particular entry of yours caught very much of my attention so i decided to post a comment here. =) when browsing the newspapers as well as many fundraising show/concert on tv on the myanmar cyclone and the china earthquake disaster, my feelings was very much like you. the pain of looking at what had happened and feeling helpless was horrible. tears welled in my eyes whenever i see those articles and clips. anyway, it was God’s riots. blame no one for it…i believe in “everything happens for a reason”. i learned to appreciate things more, i realized how lucky i was just to be safe and alive!~the power of love(especially) can be seen and felt throughout the aftermath. therefore, we should live on, stop complaining and make the best out of ourselves. May God bless the victims. as for you, take care and drive safely =)

    p/s: all right. it was a long one, sorry, was just merely sharing my thoughts as i do not have a habit of blogging(my blog had been abandoned for God knows how long), hehe…

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