Positive Sadness

谢谢大家的关心和鼓励的话。

我没事，伤心还是会，不过我也知道他现在肯定没有那么痛苦了。那天去了他的守灵，呆了四个多钟头，凌晨四点多才回家。这可是我第一次呆上这么长的时间，因为他早上九点就要送去火化了。

我不舍得。

看见他安详的躺着，我很安慰他不再辛苦，可是一想到他那天的一举一动，我的眼泪又夺眶而出，抱着他的女儿痛哭一场。他的家人对我很好，让我觉得很自在，让我感受到大家庭的温馨。
我很喜欢大家庭，因为自己没有那种环境，却又喜欢热闹。也许就是因为这样，自己以后想多生几个小孩吧！嘿嘿！

当他的女儿跟我说他父亲的过去，我又忍不住哭了。不过哭了之后，在伤心的当儿，我也领悟了不少，感觉自己好像有进入了人生的另一个阶段。他的女婿说：“She blessed Mical and got blessed in return.” 我想大概是这样吧。因为每当我想起他，心里就有很温暖的感觉，就好像那天他在病床上抚摸着我的头的那种体会。

I really appreciate the kind words from everyone to help me pull through this period. I will still be sad, but it’s a positive sort of sadness. Because I know he is now free from sickness and pain. Don’t worry dearies, I’m fine, because I know I am blessed.

By Mical and his family.

哭了

今天我忍不住哭了。

几天前，我去看一位得了肺癌的老人家。
他很喜欢看我的戏，还说他会等到十二月看《黄金路》。
负责人告诉我他最多还能活三个月。
我心里很难过，因为现在离十二月有四个月。
他举起右手，算一算，还跟女儿点头说可以。

可是今天早上他去世了。

我很后悔，没有在他的身边。

那天他躺在病床上，左手因为被癌细胞占领，隐隐作痛，又不能说话，不能吃东西。
但他还会逗我笑，眼神明亮的望着我。

那天下着大雨，我这一生都不会忘记。

我的心真的很痛。

Mical，你在我心里，已经留下了泪水也洗不掉的脚印。
希望你现在摆脱了病魔，不再痛苦了。

Though our meeting was brief, you have found a special place in my heart.
For you have taught me how to appreciate, how to love, and how to live.
From the bottom of my heart —
Thank you Mical.
I will miss you.

Touched

Stepping Out

Hello! I’m so sorry for missing in action! Didn’t mean to leave you all in the lurch. 😦 We’ve been filming in the studio all week, and I really haven’t found time to rest well, eat well and sleep well. Finally managed to get a day off today and just had a nice milky shower, so yummy!

And oh! I’ve got presents from Hong Kong! From a beloved friend! Thank you, muaks!

Delicious! Though I still like the ones I bake myself :p Heehee!

Mini Blythe Doll in Minnie Costume.
Isn’t she adorable?!?

Another Blythe doll

The beginning of this week week was fraught with a lot of emotional unpleasantries, which eased out as the week wore on. I don’t lament that these occurrences take place because more often than not, they unlock complex emotions within me that I never knew existed. And this, I reckon, is particularly helpful when I have to portray the emotions of the characters I play.

Post turbulence was the period I gave myself to reflect on certain random ideas. I came to realise that I’ve been so caught up with the pace of life and the responsibilities thrust upon me that it sometimes stresses me out unnecessarily. I form higher expectations of myself, sometimes based on what others want, all in the attempt to play the perfect role at home, at work and in my social circle.

Truth is, I’ll never be.

Not that I’ve given up trying to be a better person, but first I got to get the direction right. I haven’t got the perfect answer, but there has always been a beacon beckoning me, only I might have lost sight of it occasionally. I believe it’s time to abandon my course and steer towards the unwavering light.

I am truly grateful that I am blessed to have people who love me enough to bother.

宝贝父女兵

For those who missed my previous entries, you might want to check the June/July archives for some behind the scenes pictures and videos.
Stay tuned!

排排站，查查看好

今天有口福了！午餐和晚餐都由《排排站，查查看》的制作队伍包下了！

禄江和智诚真的好可爱，一直取笑我。到最后，连收场也被戏弄了一番。会不会播出来我就不知道，我看情形应该是会吧！好傻的我真丢脸。哎呀！

他们两人真是把我逗得笑不笼嘴。
我好佩服他们主持人的功力，牙尖嘴利，一针见血。
偶像！

第一道菜，没人敢吃太饱

评审团

积极的小朋友

“记者招待会”。
小朋友是拍个不停，好可爱！

最积极的“记者”

被耍了！呜呼！

Every Reason To Be Happy

这几年来的写照，个个都是发字内心的笑容。每张都有它特别的回忆，说来话长，就还是让大家看照片吧！　这些照片描述了我最近的心情。不知道为什么，就是觉得特别开怀。可能是前几晚做了一个恶梦，让我领悟到生命的可贵，所以提醒我要珍惜身边的一切人和事。

找灵感

正在为马来西亚的一分读物写一篇文章。
找不到灵感，所以晚睡早起。
明天要截稿了！

Hope

Have faith, even in the most dire situations.
May all global victims of recent natural and economic disasters find the strength to pull through the toughest times.

I found this picture on the Internet and would like to share it with everyone.
The balloons lend a cheery atmosphere to the otherwise dreary town.
An Afghan boy sells balloons at Wazir Abad neighborhood in Kabul, Afghanistan, Thursday, March 30, 2006.
(AP Photo/Rodrigo Abd)

五颜六色的世界

为什么主题是五颜六色的世界呢？
那天去的拍摄地点，给我的感觉很鲜艳，因为有很多颜色的地砖。
想想，其实我们的世界真的很美丽，而我也很感激老天爷给我一双看的见的眼睛，让我能珍惜眼前的一切。

不过最近看了报纸，让我感到心寒，发现世界虽然美丽，但是却还是带了悲伤给很多人。

美国Mississippi大桥倒塌；　亚洲几个国家面临淹水，地震，台风；还有昨天全球股市大暴跌。总之好像灾难接踵而来，谁也逃不过。

受害者肯定不少。

看见所爱的人遭受这样的灾难，心情又怎么能漂亮起来呢？

世界失去了色彩。

我真诚的希望问题早日迎刃而解，不要再让这么多人陷入困境，悲痛万分。