I’ve been receiving many well-wishes for the upcoming Star Awards on Sunday, thank you all for having so much faith in me. Would I like to win? Of course, that will be nice, but I believe only if the time is right when I can prove the versatility and subtlety of an actress. I’m flattered just being able to have my wild-ugly-crazy-woman clip have its five seconds of fame repeatedly, potentially disrupting anybody’s dinner appetite. Haha!
I heard I’ve been out of the top ten this week. To be honest, I’m more worried about what the media would say rather than anything else. Recently the Chinese press has made their not so positive stand towards me, claiming that I have changed because of increasing fame. After some self-reflection, I still can’t quite figure out what fame means, nor how that might have changed me. Could it be that I’ve changed my mobile number and am no longer as contactable as before? Perhaps it was something I unknowingly done that had offended someone, but I would like to make my stand and clarify any misunderstanding. If there was anything that I could have handled in a much better fashion please do let me know, and allow me the opportunity to learn.
The entertainment industry is an ever-learning place. More often than not, lessons are learnt after making mistakes, and with time and experience, I acquire knowledge of the business and how to better communicate with people. I didn’t start out holding the essential guide to a fail-proof entertainment career because there is none to own. If this sounds like an excuse, no, I’m not making any for myself. I am acknowledging my ignorance and willingness to learn from those who would give me the chance.
I remembered during my first drama, someone from higher management shared with me my first lesson: No one can blame you for not knowing.
From then on, I told myself never to take for granted the opportunities people give me, and never to make the same mistake twice. While ignorance is not incompetence, truth is, no one is liable to grant me any leeway and I appreciate all who have done so throughout my career.
This week is full of birthday celebrations, so I’d be having a good time! Whether or not I’d be winning anything on Sunday, well, we’ll know soon. 😉